The first thing you should know about Christianity is that until you really get to know God, until you are completely tangled up in Him, he does not feel very glorious or relevant. He feels very old and very stale. He looks like a faucet that used to be germane and glossy, but now is dull and cloudy with grease, rusty and covered in scratches.
This is one of those revelations that smacked me in the face after several years of pretending to have fallen in love with a savior who I knew about as well as I know Ghandi or Bill Clinton. I cannot love a God who is old and fat and greasy, a 5000 year old has-been. Why should I embrace in a God what I reject in a human? How can you love a God you don't even like?
Until you experience God- not Christianity, but God- you cannot love Him. Until he wraps the proverbial threads of his affection around you, until you begin to grasp "how long and deep and wide is the love of Christ", you will hear sermon after sermon that echoes emptily; you will sing praise song after praise song and feel nothing.
This is why some people have trouble wanting to do "what is right". Who wants to give up the safe comforts of sin in order to please a God that we don't even like? Sin is fun. If it were dull and stagnant, no one would want to sin. It is deeply ingrained into our nature.
Love changes people. The only thing that can deaden the desire to sin is love.
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