21 january

Sitting very still and very warm on the wet white plexiglass shower floor watching the water smack like smooth clear bullets against the wall and against my bare skin, watching them flock and pool pastorally and swivel erotically down the drainpipe: this is the bunsen burner of living: staring down the clean bald beautiful line of one's own naked leg: to know one is mad: to revel in the freedom of one's madness, unhinged and uncaged, untempered or tampered: to think, to wonder, to know, the extent of the madness of every other living soul.