Ha! Humans! they are wonderful, but they are not a Life. one must be warm but impregnable; one must never expect a reciprocal crop of affection. one will sometimes be burned-- but one must never cease to love! it's the cost of all that Right and Worthful love to sometimes be bashed in and wrung out. but how worth it loving is-- how Always, Indomitably worth it!
(for i only realized, yesterday, how really very rarely i am wounded! i have only twice been flamboyantly Unloved, and both by numb selfcentered men-- and once the gentler sort of half-unlove, our Sisterlove that sometimes sours, ricochets in and out of great Love and great Hatred.) what have i to complain of? two unimportant human men and their infinitisemal hearts of concrete! ha! how blessed i am and always was; how Always indubitably happy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l06M-dsQf3Q
[but let me for one moment be a disenchanted teenager: i am perfectly, perfectly happy except for, yes, he still pisses me off for being being so many different people; for being so plastickly who Everyone Else Wants, who he thinks they will love; for being made of concrete (for you are the fish now, and not i;) for being always & only to me that bizzarely innapropriately insensitive. you do not need to reinforce that you think i am Nothing. please just go away.]
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